i hate getting to know how people perceive me it feels dehumanizing almost even though its usually me asking the questions and the other person answering so thats usually on me
anyways as of late i cant really differentiate myself from other parts of myself i guess. it just feels like dave all the time now and im not getting any feedback from outside sources fuck i might not even be dave typing this out i might be our jade for all i know shes been out an about just as upset as me over jack squat i dont even know whats going on
aside from the work ive got piling up i dont have much of a reason to be so depressed i dont know whats prompting that i feel like a total buzzkill and fuck if that doesnt make me feel kinda guilty but whatever moving on from that
thinking back on how i used to describe my other parts and stuff like well theyre their own people you gotta give them respect and treat them like a person and now. i wasnt wrong but i think that wordings way outdated and doesnt even make sense because its me
its all me those are MY parts that is me im our jade im still our rose everyone else we got up in here its all dave whether i like it or not im rose im jade im everyone else as theyre me wow deep shit aint it
god its fucking confusing ive been dealing with the knowledge for five years on break for two not really it was just me ignoring it but who cares im calling it vacation
anyways kismesis #got and im feeling fine beyond that just bored
bored in a way that makes you anxious as hell
